There is some kind of desease or curse going around here!! I don't get it. I thought i was wrong in sharing my secret and past and all that shit but damn. People are so obsessed with being miserable and having a happy ending! They want to keep dragging their sorrow with them, wanting everyone to help them, feel sorry for them. Not everyone does it and I have done that too but I realised that people don't really care. They will for the first 3 years and then they'll just get tired or just be forgotten. That doesn't mean that what happened to you doesn't matter! it does but you gotta forget it!! My gosh!

And then there are people here who have such good priviledges! Rich, they get everything -i mean EVERYTHING- they want or need. yet they - the people who have sooooo much oportunities- who throw them away, turn to drugs or whatever! God it makes me sooo mad! Maybe it's just me. Maybe It's me that's wrong or was brought up wrong! I look at my cousins- when i mean cousins i mean 3 in the whole of South Africa. In my home country I have uncountable cousins who i don't know of! when i look the ones in SA, even after having the miracle of being here they still throw studies away! I mean i could scream!! Maybe I am crazy. Actually I am crazy! I'm a lunatic who thinks logically!
It's the kids at my school, the girls who are rich, who are spoilt bratz!! Who have two or more cars. who have parents (divorced, single, fighting who gives a shit) They are the ones who you will find crawling here on DA telling you about their miserable lives. They are the ones who threaten to commit suicide! They are the ones who keep on and keep on complainning as if if they didn't they would die! They are the ones who drive me insane! THey are the ones who hurt me! They are the ones who I will never never understand because no matter how hard your life is there is always a way out and that's hard work from you!!!

...Maybe I'm just some crazy foreigner who talks sense. but I'm proud of what I said...